I Pulled Off My Hands

I pulled off my hands and left them by the river in the reeds
where the children screamed at the helplessness of limbs.
I pulled off my hands and a doctor found them and told me
I should brace myself for an early death.
For the rusting bones of sleep, for the whisper of mortality
to rattle my ribcage and fill my lungs with silence.
I kicked him and I screamed and he said:
'What are you mad at me for? It's not my fucking fault.'
I pulled off my hands and then you took them and slapped me in the face
and said ‘stop hitting yourself stop hitting yourself’
and I was eight years old again, building paper houses
in the back of the car on the way to school
and no one really grows up do they no one really changes,
I’m still the one who’s not allowed to hit back
and you love that don’t you, you fucking love that.
And then you slapped my mother then my uncle then my brother,
you same blooded sadist, you miserable psychopathic bitch,
yet I’m still the black sheep dressed in mourning clothes
for some sort of innocence I never even had to begin with.
I pulled off my hands and you threw them in the river
and they clawed their way down to the open sea I’ve seen
the only lesson you had to teach which was: Just shut up and take it.
You outcast child you shut up and take it.
You miserable teen you shut up and take it.
You overprivileged you art school drop out you just shut up and take it.
You too smart for your own good you tortured poet you drinker you smoker you psychadelic taker
you wannabe escapee from this shit we call reality no - you shut up and take it.
And if you start to think you’re living a lie
and if you start to think it’s easy to die
just remember how no one even meant you to be born
so how lucky you are how lucky you are just to even be alive
and what a beautiful world this must be that won’t hear the screams
of the sad of the poor of the the faithless of the broken hearts
of all these victims and you -
You whose life amounts to a note in the margin of a book
that no one even wants to read so they prescribed it a university textbook
and forced us to pay attention while we handed over
those last remaining bones of a children’s thirst for knowledge
so that someday soon we might become our apathy
we might be become those upstanding citizens, get real jobs
and close our eyes and shut up and take it
cause the one who cries at the 6:00 news is not one who belongs in this world
so go ahead and drink that litre of wine if that’s what you need to desensitise, but me -
I watch it like a nightmare, I watch it like a fiction, me -
I stopped wearing mascara to the movies years ago,
I cry in every death scene in every film I ever see
except for the one where I’m the protagonist,
the one where I wear a vacant expression of the latest trend
and talk of how little we know of each other,
how little we know of ourselves,
and talk of how life and death don’t know don’t care
for the names we give to them, only take, take, take…
And how our bodies are indifferent to the plans we make for them
or the places we reserve for feeling afraid,
and what a flaw what a fuck up in nature that must have been
that enabled us to give a shit, enabled us to grip onto nothing
and cling for our lives on fresh air and ideology.
But hey, don’t be mad at me. It’s not my fucking fault.
I just pull off my hands and I throw them in the river
and they claw their way back to the damned
who shit on each other and shit on the streets
and take, and take, and take…


It wasn’t your fault that the engines stuck with gulls.
Fingers spitting ash and teeth dripping blood and
you screamed like an aeroplane howling with absence.
Children cried because they’d already forgotten silence.
Life seemed less like a miracle and more like necessity.

If your ribcage were the nest of a sweeter-songed bird,
roses would bloom in the salts of your eyelids
and whole processions of insects would stand still.
In the dark we would feel for ourselves,
sipping the air of the cicada’s frantic song.

Out when the cold sets bones to moving,
another dawn wages its war with the moon.
Windows dress for the day in grey cloaks of fog
and a faceless voice hums niceties with stolen breath.
Trains stop to fill with people and dive
off the ends of the tracks to the reality of nothing new.

Ode to Melbourne in Shit Weather

Here in the city there will be no need to dream.
Here, where the sun sleeps cradled in clouds,
licking the tops of our scalps.
Here where we gather the death-bent bones of trees
that shiver under the ache of unspeakable winters.
Windows kissed by frost return our faces to us,
complete with blank expressions.

Here on the ground there is no need, no need to dream.
The moon’s whispers hide in the skins of so many girls
who lay inside the crooks of replaceable arms
and stare at the ceiling. Nature penetrates
the cracks in the corners with a chaos of limbs,
desperate for the comfort of weather-worn room.

Higher than this, where time is no longer linear
but meets itself to circle,
straight roads will tell of their struggle against
the curvature of the earth.
Younger islands asserting their existence
by throwing their built arms skywards to offer
for the quiet acknowledgment of unseen gods.

Here it makes more sense the further up you are -
Tiny men with the songs of worker bees in their hearts,
parthenogenic crowds of suits longing to become a river.
Rats, having forgotten their predators,
dutifully carry the refuse of the city to the underworld
and lay down to rest under carpets of moss.
Greenery flees for underground, spreads like a blood disease,
and spits out spores through gaps in the pavement.

Here where the sun rests still in its bed,
casting a glance of faint approval.
Sure it looks better from further away,
so climb to the rooftops,
climb to the roof and

On the Imperfectability of Language

We strive, of course, for perfect expression. The preoccupation of every generation, every movement, every artist and poet since art and poetry were first conceived. An admirable aim no doubt, but entirely unachievable; any possible form we may wish to use to express something is necessarily imperfect because we, the creators, are necessarily imperfect. It is important, however, to recognise that this is not only unachievable, but entirely undesirable. For this is the struggle – against content, against form, against the dismissive prejudices of society, against our own imperfections and those of our language, our beloved; against the untranslatability of a seed of a thought into words, against words themselves, words that dance about the things they represent, flirt with meaning, flirt with each other, charm and tease out the minds of everyone who ever cared to do them any justice. Words that do all of this, do everything except to touch on their objects and stick, simply by virtue of what they are, their abstract removedness, and the fact that they were arbitrarily contrived by such imperfect minds as ours.

There is this struggle – towards perfect expression, something transcendent, a true mirror or our collective souls – and then there is the struggle against the struggle itself, that which holds us, pushes us back, ensures we keep shy of our goals, keeps us forever falling backwards like round things trying to mount an uphill slope. I feel that every poet should, at some point in their lives, recognise that we do not by any means wish to arrive at the threshold of this aim of ours and find the door wide open, arms outstretched, receptive to our coming as though it had been expecting us all along. For what then would we have to shoot for? What impossibilities would we have to love, to entrance us, to charm us, to tease us with their slippery aloofness, their power to elude even – or perhaps especially – the most talented or determined poets ever to set their sights upon them?

I have long thought it an essential property of human love that it first and foremost attaches itself to some person, object or idea that could only exist in a sort of utopia; then, with this goal in mind, it proceeds to trawl through reality to find the thing that most resembles it. This we call the object of our love. Love itself, however, lies more in the thing we will never hold; and, perhaps more importantly, in our stubborn determination to find it. This special kind of dissatisfaction, coupled with a knowingly misguided belief in something better, is the true source of all of our strongest motivations. Poetry is no different, for it, too, is love. And it, too, requires disappointments of this kind to keep us fixed on our ideals, both in spite of and because of a deeper recognition of their unachievability. This conflict, this simultaneous, contradicting need to achieve and to never achieve true perfection – this is poetry, and this is unavoidably the life of the poet beast whose stomach growls as it hesitates and shies away from its prey. And our task – to straddle this impossible divide, to wince in pain, but stay exactly where we are for the time it takes to make another feeble attempt with a few lines of careful verse. We poets are true faithful mistresses of struggle. What else have we ever known or loved? And of course we are human, so forever turning away from enlightenment, terrified of both the unknown and the truly knowable.

Let us consider for a moment, however, what would happen if someone achieved what I have thus far insisted is unachievable; a perfect means of expression through words, one that is skilfully adapted to generating exactly accurate representations of any object, of beauty, of feeling, the real stuff of art and the true workings of the human soul. (This is not even to mention the subjectivity of beauty and how we could even know perfection if we ever came across it.) What then? It seems apparent to me that the best thing we could hope to do in the face of such a discovery would be to dismiss it as another failed attempt and abandon it immediately. For this would signify the end of the struggle so essential to any ideal, any object of love; our source of motivation to keep on shooting hopelessly would be gone, and thus would occur the death of the art. And who should ever wish to abandon any love of theirs?

Now consider, again, this hypothetical. What could perfection of expression, a truly flawless beauty, possibly look like? For poetic beauty lies in the invisible, the indescribable, that elusive something that, though we can rarely explain just why, stops us at exactly where we are, fills us with real awe, and sets us trembling at our cores as if a ghost were passing through. The invisible, the unknowable, the brilliance of continuous evasion – that’s true motivation, that’s the whole god damn point of it all.

Take the old cliché, ‘it’s the journey, not the destination, that matters.’ All this is not unique to poetry. This is life. Any admirable ideal should not have as its true objective the actual realisation of any of its loftier goals. We are hardly any closer to pinning down the invisible and giving it a name today than we were on the day the first word was conceived. Nor would we ever want to be.


Still your honeyed fingers tighter round my neck
forcing steel out of blood wounds gaping holes all round the sides

Still sweet firework flesh of yours
bursting phosphenes in my eyelids shut against the wind
that howls forgiveness howls you miss me just as much

Still vessels moving coursing with other ghosts
You exist in the space between wake and sleep
and so it’s only those few seconds that we had to see slaughtered
by the clearer light of dawn pulling its blaze over the city
so that someone might look up and call it romantic
There are phantoms walking the streets at day
Criminals cloaked in day jobs and all the rest
I live amongst the soldiers’ masks
I am dressed up as myself

Still my fingers breaking off as small peace offerings
for the bone-snap cold winter mornings
howling silence howling dried ice
Your hulkish hands pry apart my ribcage
Tear my skin like gift wrap but don’t be too surprised
since we all start bleeding over each other
at the first mention of a skeleton housing a soul

Still in my dreams you show up uninvited
Start to shapeshift taking forms of all my other ghosts
greedily as if you wished they were yours and greedily as if
you knew they weren’t
But hey anything goes here it’s just a dream
So take it all away from me I’m not going to stop you

Still there are men who worship the gods of their own five senses
as if they were something to be trusted
And there are those who can’t depart from the thought
that their lives might really mean something
Dressed like brides of clarity in shining rags of day
And we are very busy and important

Still there are postmen bricklayers railway workers those
who give their lives to secure the certain rise and fall of day
Revolutions, Revelations, Remember
the sun sets the same time every day
and you’re supposed to pay it back somehow
or just by playing along

The years warped the bark of the trees in my front yard
until they started to look like you
You would sprout leaves and bloom in warmer sun
if only you weren’t so cold

Still your fingers deadened branches
Winter is written in the twenty-six age rings of your ripening bones

Still I’m much too young to have met with the warmed hushed breath
of my mortality as it presses against my arching shoulders
and hitches a ride on the older man’s hunchback
marring the bright with sunset cataracts for all his remaining days
I’m much too young to know these things and once so were you

Still the thumping churning of a poor man’s mechanical lungs
Still I miss you like the city misses silence
we’re pretending to remember from the womb
Don’t you know the babies cry because they already forgot
The security guards framed me for possession of better dreams
They took them and hid them in the belly of the beast (department store)
and called my name over the P.A. to shame me over thinking of you

Still I’d rather wrap myself around you
like a toddler on his parent’s leg in protest
Still I only want one safe place in the world
So be my phantom life raft, damn it

Be still now, I am running out of metaphors
There are too many ways to talk about absence and
none of them will ever be horror enough
Not until my skin shrinks back from my fingernails
shrinks back into itself as if from a desire
not to disturb the air around it any more than it already has
I see you mount the stairs to something better something sweeter than
the shrinking blossoms of winter yards
It looked like a dream and hey it probably was
but true enough for one is true enough it’s true

You the subtle worship of sleep
There’s a world inside of everything that’s still

Still the muscles of our paralytic days
So sing me out of stupor, sing me into sleep
Sing with the birds so no one can tell you you’re not special
Sing with the gulls if they tell you they’re born of the sea
Sing, just Shut up and Sing

Still is the sea if you’re high enough above - Silent too
Not quite the tempest you’d hoped for
Distance weakens everything, my Mother taught me that

Still the air will taste of violets if you want it to
And the storms will sing to you as if they really cared
while they summon fury enough to whisk you away from gravity
True enough for one is true enough it’s true

Still the trees are home to water flowers home to flames
Still my blood is home to you for one unsettling day
And I’ll rhyme more if you want me to
Graft sonnets onto Sunday Tuesday afternoons
Because there’s no such thing as narrative there is only the writer
So Shut up, Writer, and Sing.

Dream Poem

Almost had a way to control it all
A hypothetical button on a hypothetical machine
Couldn’t find the secret to make it work
Next door a wasteland a ruin a landfill of all our failed attempts
I broke into the grandeur the palaces of the rich in Ostentatia
And all the sky was dressed in dark
And all the clouds were sweating storms
But still I’ve been late to every party
Jayne was so upset with me I’m sorry Jayne don’t wait
My legs are failing me aching like a marathon can hardly even stand
I dragged myself up the driveway on my elbows
Telemarketers called to sell me funeral insurance
Whispered in their cracked up faceless voices
That peace of mind costs just a little over a dollar a day
And they could give that to me they could
And there was you and in your arms someone somehow worthier than me
Harder to hold a shadow I’d imagine
There was a hold-up in the grocery store and no one could leave
Stuck making picnics in the aisles between the freezers
I saw your face in my coffee this morning
And yes I swallowed you

I’ve realised that my whole life I’ve been going through very short bursts of being really productive and then I’ll stop for a while because I start to feel like everything I’m creating is really superfluous or something, and like I need to keep my ego in check if I’m thinking that people actually really want to hear what I have to say, like, why would they? Your life reflects enough of your pain back at you without needing me to do it too. And I remember reading somewhere someone said that if you can stop writing, then you should. And I would stop if I could, I really would, I’m not just saying that, even though half the time I have to force myself and it feels contrived, I think about all the times I haven’t been writing at all and they’re always the times where I’ve been all blocked up and very sad. Then I remember how crappy that feels and so I’ll start writing again. Lots for maybe two or three weeks. In this time I’ll labour over a poem or two and be very proud of myself very briefly. And repeat. And I fear that this may be my process, and it’s funny because every decent writer I ever met has felt these same things, the pointlessness I mean, and I’m always like, well, maybe the things about poetry that make you feel that way are the same things that you love about it, that make you feel some indescribable something grip you and you feel this feeling like something transcendent within yourself and outside of yourself, like how love might feel if love could have feelings of its own. I don’t know. Your own advice on creativity is such a funny thing. So foreign somehow. So unnecessarily strange.


Rambling rainmaker rousing rubble
Relentlessly receding into rapture of the rational realm
Reconciling recurring respirations with the rebloom of our rosebellied days
Rapidly reasoned rebirth rejoicing in more refined rhetoric,
Rituals rolling riverwards, recollecting ruin.

Regretfully raging roughfooted richness
Resembles the reeling repulsion of your orchestrated wrongs,
Reworking ringed rhapsodies, wrangled revelations.
Reinstating retrospection, riddled with round-eyed reincarnations,
Rituals rolling riverwards, recollecting ruin.

Reenacting rustproof reconciliation,
Rhythmless ruffians ringing the necks of ridgeboned rolling richness.
Respiration, reconciliating replications of ruminations over ruinations
Rolled out over the freezing frostbite roads of rancoured rebellion.
It requires resisting remorse, requires refusal of your regal repulsion.
Rainmaker wreaks his vengeance, romping over rusting rooftops
Raging over ruthless revolt.
Rituals rolling riverwards, recollecting ruin.

Replications of rancoured renegades
Reduced to reeling at rhythmless reedbent wrongs.
Resignation resembles repulsion, wrangled reveries, rebloom
Receding over roughly recumbent right refusal of
Repentant racketeers radiating rage,
Revelling in rancid rebirth of rosefevered reveries.
Rituals rolling riverwards, recollecting ruin.

poem that doesn’t make much sense

the poet hero accepts his pain

spoke of a state of reasonable confines,
sculpted burning staircases from shining ideas.
ascends with newly hardened feet.

i will entrust my agonising limbs
foremost to the incessant brimming over of
indecipherable syllables all drowning in the
blanched milk of our ordinary days

there will be time for mourning visionaries,
fools in conversation, second-hand brides of darkness,
economical processions of angels on their
world-weary wings.

sirens wail under their breath,
churning silence all around the museums the streets
where speech spreads its legs across centuries of mischance
and afterthoughts of orchestral women

Poem Comprised of Bits of Conversations I Eavesdropped On

We’re no longer in a state of nature.
It’s a really abstract concept,
Only exists in the sense of patterned behaviour,
Potentially helpful stupidity.
Because we are essentially selfish beings.
We do it in order to protect ourselves.

You’ve got no fire in you.
Now you can’t even give away your time.
Waking up in a room that stinks like vomit,
Stories posing moral questions and providing no answers.

Who’s to say their opinion’s even worth a damn?
Just because they wrote a book about it?
Help me to take this seriously.

I was thinking we should look at it anyway.
We sort of have this system, or lack thereof -
The utopian dream in the midst of this reality.
Really helps you to see things differently.
Limitations can be so freeing.

Tell me about the emptiness.
Are you more affected by reality TV?
So much angst right here,
So many people who wish they were poets.
Insolvency? Is that a word?
There’s so many ways you could go with this,
But the flip side of that is there’s no right answer either.

It’s about transcending the mediocrity of colloquial language.
So that people feel comfortable in the wintertime.
Doesn’t even have to make total sense.
Why is no one else picking up on this?
It’s anywhere you really want to see it.

Apparently he’s a real person,
That’s everyone’s first question when they meet him.
He wrote his entire story on cigarette papers.
What’s the likelihood of that?

Strange Asylum

Suffer longest, ones who suffer least -
Counting unremarkable Christs, Saints and
Marys on the streets, steeped in ordinary sadness -
Clutching wallets, Penguin classics, broken hearts
tranced by nightmares of grotesque compassion.

Here they are, drunk and bathed
in the night train’s sterile light.

Here they are again sweating piety undercover,
hemmed in by unfamilar seams.

Here they are in the morning chasing frost
from windowsills, here they are in a crowd of
everyday saints, their ex-lovers just other
strangers on the streets, and they’ll
suffer longest, ones who suffer least.

Oh world - Oh city speak compliance, speak of ways
to wear these thousand shades of grey, Oh world -
I belong to an age that sings to death in life,
as doomed we fuse ourselves with greyish milk of
sorry smoke, stretching out to touch the yawning sun.
The downhill struggle of the self-appointed Saint,
martyred for comfort twice removed,
Oh soothing breath of midday delirium - You talk
of revelation, mocking transcendental reach -
Suffer longest, ones who suffer least.

Sister sings of forgotten verse
in the arms of one who was almost her first -
She dreamed of one to talk of Greatest Love,
dreamed he kissed the pallor from
the cheeks of moonfaced girls,
who crying flowers, singing…
Reluctant darkness, lazily punctured
with an uninspired scattering of stars,
throws its velvet veil over younger girls
who tiptoe through rainbowed oil spills,
who silent seance misremembered innocence.

Father knows all of the dirty cathedrals,
Pope Piety the Tenth, the women lay their unbelief
at his doorstep and confess their future sins
on rosaries of chattering bones.
He measures them sometimes, measures
with the hands of a scientific man,
hands that measure poisons
in the name of sober beasts.

The corner booth of a dirty bar
is an accidental confessional, where drunks
apologetically spill their sadness all across the table
and hope no one will notice.
Outside at night the wet roads glitter
under the gaze of street lights sickly yellow,
and a sorry man steals away to a 24-hour
florist in the suburbs, the car radio
grinding love songs through the static
with an unsurprising lack of sensitivity.

Here he is in the morning,
enshrined in the devastating dawn.

Here he is again, a monument
to monumental error.

Oh world - Oh city humming praise of dissonance,
of ordinary constitution, overcoming, Oh world -
I belong to an age that sings to death in life,
something of a pop song, of mediocre worship.
Good science-fearing men submit themselves
to the monotonal drone of clockwork.
The downhill struggle of the self-appointed Saint,
martyred for comfort twice removed,
Oh soothing breath of midday delirium - You talk
of revelation, mocking transcendental reach -
Suffer longest, ones who suffer least.

All around you buildings of stony dispositions
hurl themselves toward the clouds, you follow
so at best to steal a glance at the immortal
and measure yourself against their lofty intentions.
Return to ground, you’ll learn to sigh for
city streets that aching pulse with parasitic crowds,
living backwards, biting tongues.
Counting Christs and Marys on the streets -
Suffer longest, ones who suffer least.

In this strange asylum for the moderately happy,
in this century of ordinary hell.

The Leave of Absence

A hollow greeting, everyday
smile chose me to
plunge a hand deep into
absence’s original mist,
where affection is misdirected
to the ones who don’t
deserve it, don’t even want it,
your hands’ slow river gestures
aimed at the one you loved,
who once was on the horizon
before you, bleeding colour
into the dying sun. All you
thought was you were heading
towards him, and then
he was gone, tending
someone else’s sunset.
In a dream you wrote
a song for him, in a dream
you played a flute for him,
in a dream you sat in
whitewashed room,
he left to buy cigarettes,
you never saw him again.
And this, the leave of absence,
where you hear him in
sleep’s boundless corridors,
knocking on your bedroom door.
This, the wavering midday sun,
the hour you brand
his face across the faces
of imperfect strangers
and wait for nature
to align with your visions.
But she couldn’t give a damn for you,
isn’t worth a change for you,
only a half consoling glance,
an incantatory wave of a hand.
Away - your longing for
imagined gestures, love
lost between wake and sleep
in a room with curtains for walls,
suggested silver by the
overzealous sun.
Away - and open the curtains.
Whispered river breezes pull
towards the mediocre city
in the mediocre day,
where every man is martyred
for the cause of disillusioned
dreams of longing, and a
peaceful offering in the day,
an empty smile with eyes
cast down to the mire
that threatens, that nips at our
feet like salted sea foam
tasting of tears.
A peaceful offering,
afterthought of remorse.
Even the ocean sighs apologetically,
sorry to leave you shipwrecked here,
sorry to spit in your face right here,
underneath a canopy of
devastated smoke.
You were perfection in a dream
I had once, and it threw off
the Earth’s immemorial spin.
Beauty to disobey, you apologize
and flee towards horizon’s
infinite dark, mounting
the stairs in moon shine
to the sorry mist
of night.

Supermarket Aisles, Or, A Hallmark Advertisement Disguised As A Poem

It mostly smells of lung cancer and stale petrol fumes,
and sounds like engines or cellphones or
the clinking glass of top shelf liquor.
Outside, the windows of cars are bathed in condensation
from the words of lovers
who have no room left in their lives
for commitment,
so they hoard each other like commodities,
under mattresses or in the bottoms of desk drawers
or glove compartments
where something meaningful might have been.
I once knew a guy who thought that he could fold his girl
four times down the middle,
small enough to fit inside the notes pouch of his wallet,
and another who spends hours in the ‘Wife’ section of Hallmark
just so he could have something better
to whisper in his girlfriend’s ear than,
I want to fuck you so hard your mum will feel it.
I am a spectator;
I arrange the notes in my wallet according to their value
and buy gift cards with messages
that I am too lazy to write,
only I don’t call it falling in love.
More like, there is emptiness in the whites of our eyes.
Imagine if the sky unzipped itself
and leaked a wind that uprooted skyscrapers.
They would lie down in rows like supermarket aisles
and we would shop to fall in love with the ruins of our lives.
Everything will be fine,
so long as we make sure that we are too busy counting our change
to ever look anybody straight in the eye.


and it’s daylight now, and it’s beautiful -
no more stars to cram down each other’s
throats like the shining silver liars we’ve
all tried to be, at night when there’s only
pleasant waking dreams of half-imagined
lovers and the sweet soft whispers of
wanting coaxing her to curl up naked
in the jaws of the monster in her bed,
safe enough but she never won him over,
only saw his face branded over every boy
with long hair and a five-day beard, like
advertisements slapped across the city walls,
like those pictures where the eyes will
stare you down from every possible angle,
reminds her that she never could forgive
the ones who don’t know when to look away

Salt Words and Silence

I tried to call you on a payphone the other day
because you wouldn’t answer if you knew it was me.
Your voice came like a nightmare with no vision
and I choked on the cracking line and hung up.
I am thinking of an endless winter -
it’s January now and I can still hear the echo
of chattering teeth and wind-rattled bones.
When you refuse to speak to me I question my own
existence, question Descartes’ age old conviction,
a whole new philosophic doctrine for the heart -
I feel therefore I’m not, and a lifeless shudder
at the thought of being better off without
this troublesome hunk of aching flesh.
But life is made of tiny deaths
and you are not considered a full human being
until you’ve been broken, and if all you need
for a joke is a punchline then I’m in stitches, gasping.

I could have been something sweet,
but you fed me salt words and silence for months
until my mouth was dry as cigarette ash, kindling
flames on the flesh of a stillborn innocence.
No one could tell me where the bones were kept,
but I dreamed them buried in our old backyard,
breathing winter into dying peach trees.

Sometimes I’d plunge your hand in my chest
and have to apologize for all the feelings that poured out,
but the landlords hated us anyway, so blood on the carpet,
blood on the walls, the taste of metal in between your teeth
and the string of pretty words I left you
that you never even bothered to decipher.
You’re the false god, the winter wind in January,
do you get it now? do you see?
Breathing life into corpses is a cruel business,
and death reveals itself in the empty whites
of the eyes of the broken.
They haul themselves through the city at night,
and with no stars here to nail the sky in place,
who’s to say it hasn’t fallen?

all poetry by yours truly
2012 - 2014